In with the new, out with the old. Happy new year everyone! C:
I keep seeing posts on social media about everyone's resolutions and reflections so I thought I might as well do the same. Even though my account's pretty dead, I don't mind if no one sees this. I'm just randomly venting my feelings...
I've been on deviantart for 3 years now, so that means it's been three years since I've started drawing. Although I haven't gone as far as I would have liked, I can say with certainty that I am satisfied. During my first year of joining DA I cared a lot about pageviews, watchers and the like. I wanted to grow as much and as fast as possible. I saw getting new watchers as my only validation of my ability as an artist. Eventually, I became pretty stagnant in 2015-2016 (also due to personal family issues). During this time, I still doodled but I was extremely unsatisfied every time I drew, I felt like I just had to draw to in order to improve since I wanted to be a "good" artist.
I suppose I've mellowed out a lot since then. I don't care about pageviews or watchers anymore, or even improvement. Drawing is my hobby and it should be enjoyable and not torture. I feel much happier now that I simply don't care about things anymore. Although attention is nice, what matters to me now is that I have fun drawing.
My resolution for 2017, is just to continue to drawing and exploring my art with a goal to post something everyweek. I hope you guys will look forward to it.
Since I know I talk about myself quite a bit, I'd like to know my watchers too. Have you guys ever felt the same anxiety as me and what do you think of it?